God's Letter to Me...

I am, by nature, someone who likes to feel involved. I don't necessarily have to like what the group is doing, or even participate myself. I just like to feel wanted. I guess everyone has that inclination. That's why God created woman, right? "It is not good for man to be alone..." (Genesis 2:18) Because humans are wired for companionship. This weekend, God proved to me yet again that though I desperately long for belonging, He is ultimately all I'll ever need, the presence that will fill me time and time again forever and ever amen.


When the weekend began, I was very disappointed because most of the kids I hang out with here at school were going out of town, and I wasn't part of the group. (confession time). But I resolved that I wasn't gonna dwell on it. Over and over again, God showed up in ways that I wouldn't have seen had I gone on the trip.


First, I received a letter that totally rocked my world. It wasn't signed, just addressed to me....
"My beloved, abide under the shelter of the lattice, for I have betrothed you to Myself, and though you are sometimes indifferent toward Me, My love for you is at all times as a flame of fire. My ardor never cools. My longing for your love and affection is deep and constant.   Tarry not for an opportunity to have more time to be alone with Me. Take it, though you leave the tasks at hand. Nothing will suffer. Things are of less importance than you think. Our time together is like a garden full of flowers, whereas the time you give to things is a field full of stubble.   I love you, and if you can always, as it were, feel My pulse beat, you will receive insight that will give you sustaining strength. I bore your sins, and I wish to carry your burdens. You may take the gift of a light and merry heart, for my love dispels all fear and is a cure for every ill. Lay your head upon My breast and lose yourself in Me. You will experience resurrection's life and peace; the joy of the Lord will become your strength; and wells of salvation will be opened with you. Be still, My beloved." And a reference to Song of Solomon 2:9-13.
...such a powerful reminder of how much my God loves me and pursues me. "You pursue me when I am running/You have chosen this race/You are Savior, and I am sinner/ and it delights You to save." For the first time in awhile, I actually followed advice and was still before my Lord, waiting on Him, trusting His timing. And basically, the rest of the weekend fell into place. I spent time with my family, praised Jesus with my best friend in piano music, and spent a lot of time in God's Word. He has shown me over and over again this weekend that His plans for me are so much more than anything I could ever imagine. I've been influenced and encouraged by those I consider my mentors, the one I mentor, and my God Who knew my name before the stars came to be. And, finally, I am at peace. About everything. I may not know what's next in life regarding my major, my summer, how my time is spent, but I do know that my God is sovereign and mighty and the ultimate lover and has written my name in His hand. The creator of time, of the universe, of my every cell and DNA strand, wants me to live at peace with Him. How amazing is that?
And how often do I take Him for granted? How often do I just sing the words to "It is Well" without taking the meaning to heart? He wrote a whole love letter to me, so that I could come to know Him in a way that is unique to me yet spans across time. And that is why "It is well, it is well with my soul!"


"When peace like a river attendeth my way, when sorrows like sea billows roll, whatever my lot, Thou hast taught me to say, 'It is well, it is well with my soul.'
Though Satan should buffet, tho' trials should come, let this blest assurance control: that Christ has regarded my helpless estate and hath shed His own blood for my soul.
My sin--O the bliss of this glorious thought, my sin--not in part, but the whole, is nailed to the cross and I bear it no more, Praise the Lord, Praise the Lord, O my soul!
And, Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight, the clouds be rolled back as a scroll. The trump shall resound and the Lord shall descend, 'Even so' it is well with my soul.
It is well with my soul, it is well, it is well with my soul!"
--Spafford. Psalm 103:2


"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared in advance for those who love Him."--2 Corinthians 2:9.